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5月12日 Lifes Ironys and SurprisesJust when you start to think that you know what your plan is in this world "life" poke its head in and it reminds us we are not in control of everything! Its some what thrilling and unnerving also . I was ready to pick up and explore living in Vancouver. Had my kids vote and started to figure it out, and just then a pleasant surprise brought my best friend to me to live in Calgary. Just like that (poof) employment arose and now just 2 weeks later he is here.
To be honest I am sort of freaking out inside, overwhelmed with excitement passion and worry. Although worried I will be broken like I was in August. I ironically reconnected with a new man in August completely as friends who both enjoyed writing and creating. And let me tell you I am guarded. But he knows me so well its scary... he will put it on me directly what I am doing and why and he very patient & reassures me. He is a gifted man artistically and intellectually. He is very spiritually in touch with himself and others. And he is full of life and magical dreams as a amazing writer.
This last week was a bit more emotionally, then I had planned after "life" poked its head in and reminded me about my past. Past being something I have decided to forget and not hurt over anymore. I received a short touching email form a little girl I had once truly cared for just saying that she missed me. I was so touched that she was brave enough to write as I'm sure it was something she did on her own, also because I had started to honestly believe I had just been replaced and forgotten. While it was sweet it also hurt a bit. I miss her too :( I have worked so hard to not remember how much I loved her but she and I understood one another and I will always care deeply for her.
So these are the ways life has touched me and reminded me there is so much more then I can know or control. Thank god too cause I need to be surprised as it inspires me to keep my eyes open and appreciate the day as we have it. Maybe not everything is set in stone...its a good thing to remember that the possibilities are endless. All you need is to be open to them. |
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